January 2012
11 posts
Next level
Today my boyfriend and I went to the next level;)
He held me up when I tripped and almost fell. Uh oh.
Going on week 2. Is it okay to fear teen pregnancy now? Oh wait.
Michaela says,
Time to get a purity ring? Add A “no kissing or touching” ring to that too. Just to cover my bases. Mhm.
Get lost
I love that feeling you get when you’re lost in someone’s eyes. That warm feeling, that smile that radiates through you. How you can look in their eyes and just KNOW they’re looking at you, and really seeing you.
Michaela Says,
I’m obsessed with eye contact.
Let me get lost in you.
I'm feeling
Like I’m drowning.
Time to fake smile, and pretend to feel what I’m not feeling.
Ball n chain
It’s like I’m dragging my feet. Like in a dream when you can’t run fast enough, or run at all, as much as you try.
What have I gotten myself into?
It’s as if everyone told me what I wanted, so I started to believe it. Do I really want this?
How can I be with someone, when he won’t even kiss me?
How can I be with someone when he won’t touch me at all?
How...
iffy
Hot & Cold
Yes & No
In & Out
Up & Down
You’re practically a Katy Perry song.
I don’t know what you’re thinking, and I’m not sure if I want to.
Michaela Says,
I know I’m an iffy person. I mean, let’s be honest.
But…I’m turning that around. That’s my new years resolution Life Style. Time to get everything into place,...
Moving on
Isn’t all that bad. Once you get there, I mean. The trip is hard as hell, the changes are almost unbearable. But in the end, you find yourself, find strength you never knew you had, and find that sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. It’s scary, but it’s worth it.
Michaela Says,
Dallas is just a hop a jump and a skip away. Good luck, Lindsie. I...
sometimes
People make mistakes.
I hurt people without meaning to. I swear I have the best intentions.
All I can say, is I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.
Mostly I’m sorry that “I’m sorry” isn’t enough.
I didn’t realize I was hurting you.
How can things go so wrong, so easily?
What bothers me the most, was it was a lose-lose situation. I was going to hurt someone....
B.N.Y.
Before the new year.
1. Sucessfully pass my first semester at Trinity University
2. Go to New York for new years eve
3. Change someones life
4. Learn what I deserve, and never settle for less
5. Sing in a talent show
6. Go to a concert (not including warped tour)
7. Road trip to somewhere
8. Go out of the country
9. Get a tattoo in memory of my Grandpa
10. Find a true friend, and not...
December 2011
8 posts
Holly Daze
Tis the season for spending too much money, and buying each other love. Tis the season for lying to kids, and allowing strange fat men into our homes. Tis the season of “giving” as if “giving” isn’t important any other time of year. Tis the season to be in a holly jolly daze.
Fa la la la la la la la BLAH.
Michaela Says,
I miss when Christmas seemed so much more...
advise/advice
Don’t ask for advice if you’re not even going to listen. You’re annoying the hell out of me, and I’m done being patient.
Yes, you’re going through a hard time. No, it doesn’t give you a reason to be a bitch.
You’ve already ruined one of the most important times of my life, don’t keep it up. I won’t keep my mouth shut for long.
Michaela...
suffocate
No air, no room, the walls are closing around you. You couldn’t open your mouth in protest, so you sat there, fake smile and warm words. Surrounded. By promises you’ve made, by lies you’ve told, by no longer being able to tell the difference. You’ve dug, and kept digging. And the dirt fell down, encasing you and your words again.
You’ve Suffocated Yourself, and now...
I pretend...
I feel the most like myself when I’m home alone, wearing my hooker heels and a trucker hat, singing and dancing like a maniac to music that’s way too loud.
Michaela Says,
Let loose, or you’ll lose yourself.
anthonyhc asked: Why are you a booger?:P
But really.
I start off a lot of sentences with “I pretend…”
I can never make up my mind. And when I do make up my mind, it probably wasn’t the best choice. I worry. All the time. I have a no worries tattoo. I got the tattoo to prove myself wrong. I’ve done a lot of things in life to prove myself wrong.
I’m cliche. I became who I am today because of a boy who had my heart...
Peaked
When I see pretty girls in highschool that look like their 20 and get what they want, I feel jealous. That is until I realize they’ve peaked in highschool, are going no where in life, and seeing as they look 20 now, are going to look 40 in a few years. Yep. Jealousy gone.
Michaela Says,
Highschool has sucked. But that just means I have so much waiting in my future:)
flash forward
Acceptance in the form of a letter. The next chapter of my life is set: Trinity University. Lufkin, I can now offically say: KISS MY ASS. :)
November 2011
2 posts
A little more than kin, and less than kind.
Family doesn’t always refer to people you love. Family can simply refer to those you say you love because it seems necessary. Raise your hand if you would have easily met, gotten along with, and loved the people you call FAMILY, if they weren’t blood? Yeah, not many. Kin only gets you so far.
It’s funny how people who are NOT related to you, can be so much closer and mean so...
tr[us]t
Trust me when I say, I’m done with trusting people. Those that seem so honest, are the ones you should be most weary of. You can’t trust anyone fully. No one but yourself. Honesty is dead, along with chivalry and Elvis Presley.
Michaela Says,
Trust me, I’ve been there, done that. The whole trusting game. Yes, GAME. The one who gets hurt first, loses, the one who betrays first,...
September 2011
6 posts
Toy Story
I find myself in a plastic box, shiny and new. Polished and waiting for someone to pick me, to choose me over all the other toys in the store. All shiny and new and waiting. Waiting and hoping that I have the brightest colors, the most exciting game, a wow factor that the other toys lack. Then there he comes. The boy, excited and rosy cheeked. The fact that he can pick out a new toy, take it home,...
Make up your damn mind.
You either do or you don’t. It’s that simple.
How is it fair to lead me on, tell me lies, and give me hope, if you KNOW none of it is true? Honestly, I’m a big kid, you can tell me the truth, I can handle it…I hope.
I’m sick of staying stuck in Wishy Washy Town. Population: You. Give me, just once, a straight forward answer. No excuses. No lies. Nothing. Just the...
Wrong on so many LeVeLs
You know those people that are NEVER wrong? You know, the ones that even when they’re wrong, they’re right? The obnoxious know-it-alls, and blamers-of-others? Yeah, those people really just work my last nerve.
I am the first to admit that I find it hard to admit when I’m wrong. Admitting your wrong is seen as a public announcement that you have faults, and having faults is...
shellfish.
“Don’t go around saying the world owes you a livng, the world owes you nothing, it was here first.” -Mark Twain
Selfish, selfish, selfish! HELLO. You are one out of billions, and you are smaller than a speck compared to the universe. You, relatively speaking, don’t matter nearly as much as you think you do.
How, then, do people ever get under the impression that the world...
The Game
Michaela Says,
Let me break it down for you. People lie, and we believe it. And the world is really just one big, colorful, game board. And in the end you’re basically lookin’ like a fool. And you accept this. Because you think it’s your fault. And it’s not. That’s how you know you’ve been played. When you wake up and realize you had no control in the...
Believe Me, I'm Lying
“If you keep telling white lies, soon you’ll go color blind.”
White lies are like life boats in raging waters. We cling to them to keep from sinking, to escape the storm. We wear them like masks, keeping a poker face. Because sometimes saying someone’s butt looks big, really isn’t the best thing to do. Sometimes, a simple “you look nice,” even if they...
August 2011
5 posts
sinking ships
You know that feeling? That God awful sinking in your stomach when you know you’ve done something you shoulnd’t, or know something is about to happen and you can’t stop it? It’s the feeling like you’re on a constant roller coaster, and try as you might, you can’t get away from the ups and downs, and loops and turns. It’s the butterflies in your stomach,...
Ladies Shouldn't be Messed With
“She’s a back seat driver, a drama provider, an instant update of the world. She a first class liar, a constant forgetter. She’s attractive but bitter. She’s a lady, and ladies shouldn’t be messed with.” -FTSK
It’s no surprise to know that girls have more of a knack for drama than boys. I believe it all starts with genetics. Girls run around from birth...
Michaela Says
My name is Michaela.
I’m just an average, high school girl, who over-thinks and over-speaks. So here I sit, writing a blog, that speaks very well for itself, and cannot be misheard. Which is a rare thing in today’s world, seeing as everything always seems to somehow get lost in translation.
Words can be twisted, lies can be told, and opinions can be silenced. So how do I expect to...
